I am blessed with the curse!

Of loving you
Of loving you even more

Of wanting you
Of wanting you even more

Of dreaming about you
Of dreaming about you even more

Your's 
Aaj jaane karo ki zid na karo
Yun hi pehlu mein baithe raho
Haaye mar jayenge hum to loot jayenge

Why do i always have to do  the wrong thing!
The temptation of wanting more always drowns me!

You wrote to me
I wrote to you

You talked to me
I talked to you

And the vicious cycle went on and on and on!

Yet again, when i look back
I still see us smiling and giggling

Sometimes I feel I have made peace with it!!
Sometimes I feel I have not!!
And sometimes I feel I am right there, where I started years ago!

Reflection

Because I reflect
I feel miserable

Because I reflect 
I feel guilty

Because I reflect
I feel betrayed

Because I reflect
I feel hurt

Because I reflect
It complicates my mind

Because I reflect
It wounds my soul

Because I reflect
It breaks my inner goddess

There are people
People who don't reflect

Don't they live their life
Don't they have peace within
Don't they breathe the same air that I do
Don't they absorb the same sunshine that I do

Then why can't I stop this
Then why can't I put an end to the end
Then why can't I make it go

What if I deflect
But don't I already do that
Everyone does that, right

Does reflecting on oneself, makes you a better person?
Does reflecting on oneself, makes you a tolerant person?
Does reflecting on oneself, makes you a lot more confused
Does reflecting on oneself, makes you a lot more worse

Is it good or bad?
Is it bad or good?
Is it white or black?
Is it black or white?
Is it gold or silver?
Is it silver or gold?

I often ask myself the same questions, once and once again.
What if I deflect?
What if I reflect?
What if?

But then don't we know that reflecting and deflecting are two sides of a coin.

Your's
Kills me to let you inside
Feels the wrong kinda right
But in the back of my mind
You know you're all I am thinking of!!