Where my demons hide

When you realise that you have only one life to live, does it become easy or does it become difficult?

Or it just hits you all of a sudden?

Or it just stops hurting because you have turned into a apathetic enormous giant?

Or just because you have lost all your warmth?

Or just you overthink every move you make?

If I have changed for good, why does it bother me when a heart breaks

If I have changed for bad, why does it comfort me when I hear your name

If I am over you, why does it break me every time I find a connection?

If I was never under you, why am I scared of something good?

And you say you always learn from your mistakes, have you? 

Or was it even a mistake?

Sometimes I just wonder what makes me 'me'!

Sometimes I just question my own demons!

Sometimes I just search for my inner goddess!

And they say memories cause love! And love definitely kills from within!

Then why can't I kill the you inside of me?

Yours

This is where my demons hide

Don't come close, it's dark in here

Sometimes knowing what you want from life, is not the best thing!
It breaks you and makes you!

Yours
I meant to break you
I meant to make you

The utmost desire to care less, makes me apathetic
The intention of letting go of people,  makes me detached
 Trying not to be humane, makes me a little more devilish

Does it curb my happiness?

Yours
Trance state of mind

It's hazardous to love somebody with sheer dedication and much adored loyalty. Cause when they move on, you get stuck with your fucking loyalty!!
I don't know what is wrong and what is right! Or may be I know!
Sometimes I just want to float!

Yours
That weak moment which breaks me

Everything's shiny!

I love it when the sunlight glitters on the wet sea sand!

Reminds me of something!

Reminds me of somebody!

Reminds me of a happy memory!

Reminds me of you!

You wanted

You wanted this

You wanted that

You wanted more

You wanted to take it to the next level

You wanted to move on

You wanted not to want anything more

You wanted to settle the thoughts

You wanted 

You wanted 

Just like a hurricane

Just like the wind

Swept my love away

Yours
Wanna be just as close as the holy ghost is

My-my-my dilemma!

Whether to do it 
Whether not to do it
Or just get it over with 

How often these questions cloud your decision?

What do you do when you don't want to do something, would you do it for a loved one?

What do you do when you don't want to do something, would you do it for a dear friend?

Is it even right to base your decisions on the emotional bond you share with the other living thing?

Or the decisions are worthless in front of a priceless bond?

What about my inner goddess?

Will she let me do it?

What if I say my negativity bothers me 

What if I say my positivity bothers me

Is it selfish?

Is it cruel?

It it incorrect?

Is it even worth every moment of my time?

Is it absolutely wrong to do something that is always correct?



There you go! Always with a dilemma!
Always with numerous questions!
Why does it always have to end up with a question?



Yours
One half wants you
The other half wants to forget you
I just can't get you out of my head
My-my-my- dilemma