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Saturday, November 30, 2013
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Who is she?
They call her the night fairy
When she kisses you goodnight
They call her an angel
When she makes your life an incredible journey
They call her sunshine
When she brightens your day by her charismatic smile
They call her goddess
When she blesses your wretched life with her presence
They call her a good omen
When she brings back luck into your life
They call her strength
When she makes your backbone rock solid
They call her a witch
When she doesn’t rule your world your way
They call her lonely
When she breaks all the attachment that kills her
They call her damaged
When she tries hard to get a grip on her life
They call her imperfect
When she fidgets
They call her a bitch
When she refuses to go with the flow!
Who is she?
She is with in me and she is within you!
She is not stealing the show! “He” will always be the show
stopper! At least as long as she doesn’t get that grip back on her
life!
Yours
Sometimes it’s inappropriate to go with the flow
Sometimes it’s unconventional to be conventional
Sometimes it’s inapt to follow your light
Sometimes it’s unjustified to be justified
Monday, November 25, 2013
You don't always look for answers!
I often think what is that
urge, that compels you to do something for someone.
I very often think that why
is that when we do something for someone it makes us happy.
Is it because they deserve
every bit of it or is it because you wanted it to do for you?
Do you do certain things in
life to serve your soul purpose in life?
Do you perform a task just
because you think it’s your duty?
Do you fulfill a wish because
that's what you want or that's because the other person needs you to?
But then needs and wants are
two different entities? I need a thing. I want a thing.
If i need, i make it happen.
If i want, i wait for it to
happen.
But then do you always wait
for the right time? There is no right time though.
There were times when we used
to wait for the right time. There were times when I waited for the right time
to conjure the truth!
Sometime back a good friend
told me, when you do something for someone that's because there is reason
behind it and at some point of time you expect them to do the same.
Even I have had my years of soul searching. Not every
time you ask a question you know it will be answered. Not every time you have a
doubt you know it will be cleared. Not every time you are in a dilemma, you will
find a way.
Someone once told me, I do it because it is my duty.
Someone once told me, I do it because I want to.
Someone once told me, I do it because that’s what is
expected of me.
What puts me in a strange place is when I try to
correlate the series of events.
Why, why, and why.
Are duty and wants correlated?
Is expectation a part of performing a task?
Is duty a part of a daily ritual?
There are too many questions.
There are too many answers.
There were too many questions.
There will be more and more of it.
Not always I was searching for an answer.
Not always I want an answer.
But little did I know, you are capable of answering
each and every one of them.
Little did you know, that particular night
Little did you know, that exact time
I wasn't looking for an answer.
I just wanted to be heard.
Because some truths are easier when hidden.
Yours
Whether to repent or rejoice!
Whether to release or recapture!
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Saving and killing an illusive dream!
What is an illusion?
Is it an illusion?
I often ask this question to my inner goddess!
You know what she says!
She says things that you are not ready to accept and things you desperately want to happen to you but they don't is an illusion!
But then who doesn't know what is an illusion! Things that give birth to false believes! Things that are wrongly perceived! And you say i had an illusion!!!
Having one and convincing yourself that you had an illusion! That is not what reality is! But having an illusion and facing reality aren't two contradicting terms? They drift away from each other in two different pathways! But when they join, they form a straight line, where you won't know, when it all started as an illusion and when you realized it was that bitter truth of life that is so hard to accept!
But then with time and with much increased levels of threshold you learn to accept the bitter truth! Errrr..not only bitter truth! In that case any thing that is true and that anything that makes you what you are today! Accepting a truth is much more difficult than living in an illusive dream! But as humans we always run after that illusive dream of ours! You know why? Cause we believe that one day we are gonna turn that illusive dream into reality! And sometimes that life runs out and some of our illusive dreams stay right there from where it started! Another illusive dream! But isn't that how the chakra works??
I can't save your soul!
Neither can you save mine!
But then what if i don't want to be saved!!
I am not asking a question!
Illusive dreams just break away like the wild raindrop!
They drop! They drag!
They never stick to one place!
They run down and they run away!
They reappear!
And when that is not enough they haunt you!
But then we all have some or other thing that haunts us at some part of time!
Do you kill them??
I don't cause i can't!
And i don't have the strength to murder one of my illusive dream!
We can talk about dreams!
Dreams are good!
Yours
I can't forget what i have done!
Baby i can't save your soul!
Cause i can't save mine!
Is it an illusion?
I often ask this question to my inner goddess!
You know what she says!
She says things that you are not ready to accept and things you desperately want to happen to you but they don't is an illusion!
But then who doesn't know what is an illusion! Things that give birth to false believes! Things that are wrongly perceived! And you say i had an illusion!!!
Having one and convincing yourself that you had an illusion! That is not what reality is! But having an illusion and facing reality aren't two contradicting terms? They drift away from each other in two different pathways! But when they join, they form a straight line, where you won't know, when it all started as an illusion and when you realized it was that bitter truth of life that is so hard to accept!
But then with time and with much increased levels of threshold you learn to accept the bitter truth! Errrr..not only bitter truth! In that case any thing that is true and that anything that makes you what you are today! Accepting a truth is much more difficult than living in an illusive dream! But as humans we always run after that illusive dream of ours! You know why? Cause we believe that one day we are gonna turn that illusive dream into reality! And sometimes that life runs out and some of our illusive dreams stay right there from where it started! Another illusive dream! But isn't that how the chakra works??
I can't save your soul!
Neither can you save mine!
But then what if i don't want to be saved!!
I am not asking a question!
Illusive dreams just break away like the wild raindrop!
They drop! They drag!
They never stick to one place!
They run down and they run away!
They reappear!
And when that is not enough they haunt you!
But then we all have some or other thing that haunts us at some part of time!
Do you kill them??
I don't cause i can't!
And i don't have the strength to murder one of my illusive dream!
We can talk about dreams!
Dreams are good!
Yours
I can't forget what i have done!
Baby i can't save your soul!
Cause i can't save mine!
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Monday, November 11, 2013
Reactions- better known or better unknown!
What bothers you most- when you know how the person standing in front of you feels or when you don't know how the person feels?
You can only interpret how a person reacts to a particular thing only if you have lived long with that person or if you understand the person adequately! I won't say you can only decipher the exact feeling if you understand completely, because somehow and anyhow no matter how long you have lived together or even how well or close you are, there are times when we are completely clueless about certain things! Cause you can't understand a person completely, with every passing moment you learn to understand him/her better. And that's because, with every passing time we learn from our mistakes, we learn from our success, we learn from each other and when that's not enough, time teaches us! And there's this mutation! If not learn, then at least mutate! I know you can do that! i can! I think so!
Reactions can be sometimes overwhelming, like mine
Reactions can be sometimes disheartening, like mine
Reactions can be sometimes drastic, like mine
Reactions can be sometimes gradual, like yours
Reactions can be sometimes ugly
Reactions can be sometimes beautiful
But what actually keeps you in the loop is when these are only reactions! When you overreact, the very next moment you loose everything that you have! But then if you ask me, i think i over react at times. What puzzles me is- is it always that i over react or is it how you look at me?
But then most women do, don't we? or at least we think we over react....
But the whole post is not about how and why women over react, it's about how it feels when you know or don't know what is the exact reaction...So let me stick to it...Phew my own thoughts are so mean!!! Like really mean! they always tempt me to drift away! Always!
Yeah so what was i saying, where do you like it? On the bed or under the shower?
Whatttt! I am just talking about the good thought process!
Well when you know a person enough to decode their exact reaction for a particular issue, sometimes it helps you in decision making and sometimes it confuses you!
Why it confuses you? Well there are things that you want to do and the other person doesn't! In that case you are really confused whether to go with it or abandon it!
How it helps you in decision making, well that part we all know, i needn't elaborate!
Anyways it's always easier to give than to take away!
Anyways it's always easier to agree than to disagree!
Anyways it's always easier to nod than to keep mum!
Anyways it's always easier to keep everyone happy.... well about this one, am really not sure!
But then don't you always choose the right path? I know some of you do, few of my friends do and they want me to! But am no saint! Bad attracts bad, likewise wrong attracts me!
And i don't want to be a saint but why would i want to be one when i have few people in my life to pull me back from hell! But trust me hell is very inviting ;) ( a word of caution- this is not for the weak heart)
Sometimes when you know what is going to be exact reaction, it scares you... hmmm you have a doubt about that? Well it scares the hell out of me and at times it hurts me also! But then you are hmmmm not even me! We are no Professor Snape! We can't control minds!
Many a times when am not sure how he is going to react, it blinds me! Yes he! Why he! Why you! It has become a part of me! What i am today! But let's leave "the he and you" alone for now! Even if i don't, he will!
What am just saying is, when you don't know about the reactions, it can lead to misunderstandings! It can lead to fights! It can lead to anger! And anger my friend! Is itself a killing machine! So whenever you have a slightest doubt, pop up the question! Do it then! Do it now!
Ahhh! i know you will be more than happy to know whether i do it myself or not! Well sometimes i do and many times i don't. That's because am too afraid to even ask! And somethings are better left unsaid even after knowing that they are ones that you will keep thinking about!
Seriously speaking i don't have any clue what am doing right now!
Seriously speaking i don't have any clue why am doing what i am doing!
Seriously speaking i don't have any clue what am going to do later!
Seriously speaking i know it's numbing me!
It all depends on which side you are on! That will find an answer for you!
Your's
You were never mine!
You will never be!
But does it really matter!
I knew it already!
You can only interpret how a person reacts to a particular thing only if you have lived long with that person or if you understand the person adequately! I won't say you can only decipher the exact feeling if you understand completely, because somehow and anyhow no matter how long you have lived together or even how well or close you are, there are times when we are completely clueless about certain things! Cause you can't understand a person completely, with every passing moment you learn to understand him/her better. And that's because, with every passing time we learn from our mistakes, we learn from our success, we learn from each other and when that's not enough, time teaches us! And there's this mutation! If not learn, then at least mutate! I know you can do that! i can! I think so!
Reactions can be sometimes overwhelming, like mine
Reactions can be sometimes disheartening, like mine
Reactions can be sometimes drastic, like mine
Reactions can be sometimes gradual, like yours
Reactions can be sometimes ugly
Reactions can be sometimes beautiful
But what actually keeps you in the loop is when these are only reactions! When you overreact, the very next moment you loose everything that you have! But then if you ask me, i think i over react at times. What puzzles me is- is it always that i over react or is it how you look at me?
But then most women do, don't we? or at least we think we over react....
But the whole post is not about how and why women over react, it's about how it feels when you know or don't know what is the exact reaction...So let me stick to it...Phew my own thoughts are so mean!!! Like really mean! they always tempt me to drift away! Always!
Yeah so what was i saying, where do you like it? On the bed or under the shower?
Whatttt! I am just talking about the good thought process!
Well when you know a person enough to decode their exact reaction for a particular issue, sometimes it helps you in decision making and sometimes it confuses you!
Why it confuses you? Well there are things that you want to do and the other person doesn't! In that case you are really confused whether to go with it or abandon it!
How it helps you in decision making, well that part we all know, i needn't elaborate!
Anyways it's always easier to give than to take away!
Anyways it's always easier to agree than to disagree!
Anyways it's always easier to nod than to keep mum!
Anyways it's always easier to keep everyone happy.... well about this one, am really not sure!
But then don't you always choose the right path? I know some of you do, few of my friends do and they want me to! But am no saint! Bad attracts bad, likewise wrong attracts me!
And i don't want to be a saint but why would i want to be one when i have few people in my life to pull me back from hell! But trust me hell is very inviting ;) ( a word of caution- this is not for the weak heart)
Sometimes when you know what is going to be exact reaction, it scares you... hmmm you have a doubt about that? Well it scares the hell out of me and at times it hurts me also! But then you are hmmmm not even me! We are no Professor Snape! We can't control minds!
Many a times when am not sure how he is going to react, it blinds me! Yes he! Why he! Why you! It has become a part of me! What i am today! But let's leave "the he and you" alone for now! Even if i don't, he will!
What am just saying is, when you don't know about the reactions, it can lead to misunderstandings! It can lead to fights! It can lead to anger! And anger my friend! Is itself a killing machine! So whenever you have a slightest doubt, pop up the question! Do it then! Do it now!
Ahhh! i know you will be more than happy to know whether i do it myself or not! Well sometimes i do and many times i don't. That's because am too afraid to even ask! And somethings are better left unsaid even after knowing that they are ones that you will keep thinking about!
Seriously speaking i don't have any clue what am doing right now!
Seriously speaking i don't have any clue why am doing what i am doing!
Seriously speaking i don't have any clue what am going to do later!
Seriously speaking i know it's numbing me!
It all depends on which side you are on! That will find an answer for you!
Your's
You were never mine!
You will never be!
But does it really matter!
I knew it already!
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Here i am, missing you again !!
I miss you when i go to sleep
Cause there is no one to bid me goodnight
Cause there is no one to tuck me in
I miss you when i get up in the morning
Cause there is no one to wake me up
Cause you are my own sun
I miss you when i have nightmares
Cause there is no one talk to
Cause there is no one to calm my nerves
I miss you when i have a great news to share
Cause you are unavailable
I miss you, when i need a friend
I miss you, when i need an answer
I miss you, when i need an opnion
I miss you, when i need a lover
I miss you when am elated
Cause you are inaccessible
But i don't miss you when i dream
Cause you are already there
But i don't miss you when i sleep
Cause you are in my dreams
But what i fear most
When dreams become dreams!
I wish i would have played my cards right!
Your's
I just can't believe this is my life
In my fantasy you are running wild!!!
Cause there is no one to bid me goodnight
Cause there is no one to tuck me in
I miss you when i get up in the morning
Cause there is no one to wake me up
Cause you are my own sun
I miss you when i have nightmares
Cause there is no one talk to
Cause there is no one to calm my nerves
I miss you when i have a great news to share
Cause you are unavailable
I miss you, when i need a friend
I miss you, when i need an answer
I miss you, when i need an opnion
I miss you, when i need a lover
I miss you when am elated
Cause you are inaccessible
But i don't miss you when i dream
Cause you are already there
But i don't miss you when i sleep
Cause you are in my dreams
But what i fear most
When dreams become dreams!
I wish i would have played my cards right!
Your's
I just can't believe this is my life
In my fantasy you are running wild!!!
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