Outbursts of good moments!

I have come such a long way, that it becomes a little tiresome when i look back into "The past".

And :The past" here refers to some days back, not very new, not very old but definitely old!

I used to love those rose glass-tinted days, going to school, coming back and then listening to those melodious rhythm on an old tape recorder.

And being a music lover, i used to collect those recorded tapes, just to get immersed in those lovely songs...When i see the present scenario, it's so damn different..you will find those cassettes stacked in some corner of the house...No wonder time has changed a lot!

From old big records on a gramophone(though i wasn born)

To cassettes on a tape recorder

From a tape recorder to a 2-in-one

To a 2-in-one to a walkman

From a walkman to a deck

To a deck to a cd player

From a cd player to lappy

And finally a ipod!

What a phase!! Must say!

But what is constant is the mind bending towards good vibrations of sound.

Within all these, there were some songs we all shared with eachother...

When i heard that song today "Gurus of peace" , i was reminded of a school fren of mine!

Then again when i heard some tamil number, i was reminded of some good frens of mine!

Whether it's the music or it's the person! But definitely something is soo strong i cant let go!

Singing off 

"The Author"

A shadow or reflection!

Bleeding soul
Broken beat
Charging goals
Anguished emotions


One dark night
One calm tornado
One drenched thought
One continuous end


An old white house
An rusty window pane
A swampy floor
A rugged stripped bed


With every evidence of liveliness
With freshness of air


There nested a lonely shadow
Crawling on the benchmark of his expectations
Killing the loneliness of the the house
Starring into the darkness
Destroying the optimism of positiveness


Suddenly out of that pessimism of negativeness
Born was a bright blue soul
Tantalizing the non-existence of contentment
Chasing each breathe of evil
Clearing out the clouds of sadness


And here takes birth a newfangled life!
Racing with the flow of water
Conquering the speed of light 
Drenched with supreme happiness
Killing the shadow 
Making it a reflection!


Don't be a shadow
Be a reflection!

A day it was!!

A day it was
Sun-filled sky
Moon-lighted dark sky
Cloud- blanket all over the sky
Rain drizzling


There i was
On my chair
Looking forward to spend my day effectively
I sitting on that black throne 
All alone left in my chamber 


Time speeding up
Fast more fast super fast
I am still in the similar position
Wondering in my never land
Lost in the nothingness of something


Day passes off
Night fall
Sky blanketed by those black vivid clouds
And i am still soaked in the nothingness 


Sometimes some intriguing music lights a fire inside me
A tiny little flickering sparkle
That grows with each beat of the intimidating music


Music heals my soul
Music heals my lesions


Music calms my intense thought
Music calms my emotions


Just some thought of mine...
Neither complete, nor incomplete
Neither has life nor has lost the zeal!!

The vague theory of acceptance and no-acceptance!

Often we find ourselves in this particular situation, struggling between the two ends. One is so near and the other is so far yet you want to reach both. How is that even possible at the same time??


So here goes my next blog, the science of acceptance and non-acceptance.


What is this acceptance?
The dictionary defines as the act of receiving or taking things.


And nonacceptance: is something that i define as - things that you are not able to take in.


This is not just some term, instead this a very precious emotion that everyone experiences at least once in their lifetime. And of course we humans have the liberty to feel emotions and display it too..But it is not the same for the kind-eyed animals though.


This struggle between the theory of acceptance and non-acceptance is always there..Cos this is something that you can't gain control over. 


Wise men of all the time ..Errr.. wise women too..as in what i mean is all these wise old people, after living those many years say that: 
"The early you accept things the way they are
The late you live with peace and harmony"


I don't know which of these old people say all these but definitely this is all manipulated, tampered form of the advice actually..Basically the whole wise lines convey: Dude!! Move on! hah!


But don't know how far these morals are useful...Seriously if you ask me..from my point of view it's actually that difficult as it looks...Thank god!


Just for instance if i say for just an example, for me it is damn difficult..The hard i try, the more i get immersed in it!! But the moment i stop thinking about that whatever , now that does help.
What exactly i am trying to say is acceptance is an easy job...You forget everything and you accept. But the stage before that, you think-re-think and again think...And after a war within you, you finally accept it.. But the safari before that...You definitely don't enjoy that..


And the hypothesis or theory or rule or what ever you call it...of non-acceptance...Why does this even happen??
Cos you don't agree 
Cos you are hurt
Cos you are angry
Cos your trust is very strong
Cos you love is too matured
Cos your idea of going along s too firm

It can be due to many reasons. Not just one and sometime it can be multi-faceted...
Can a small hole, and the whole thing slips in through that. Then you revolve around the war of acceptance and non-acceptance.


For instance just say even if after that battle of yes-no-no-yes you accept the thing..But what about those old rusted memories...yes what about them?? Neither every one is gifted with amnesia nor with some remote so when you click that red button, those old rusted memories vanish....


At this particular point, i sincerely wish i have such a remote!! That would be extra cream over a cold alluring coffee! But personally i dont like cold coffee..So for me i will be an extra strong hot coffee wid those alluring smell of roasted coffee beans...( oh oh oh !! my thoughts!! i gotta control them)




Sometimes non acceptance can be a form of blessing..How?? Cos sometimes we become tired of this daily battle, so wee seek a whole new path to climb those stairs of life..And this new chapter opens to you with all that vitality inviting you in..Something so strong, so joy full, so balanced.....You step into those shoes of happiness..


Do you actually accept things that are difficult to??
Nah!! It just you move on. Otherwise the normal human tendency never allows such dazzling transformations...
Though it does allow to trade things your way...


There is no such strict rules for acceptance..Play it your way!! And you win!!

Cos babe! Life's a handful of air! You can neither hold it nor can you let it go!!!!


And if you ask me what is my madness all about??
I would say it's just a lil break from my daily being
A break from being my routine"me"

Tik Tak Tik Tak Tik

With rain drops kissing the dirty earth
With hot summer heat escaping the mother earth
With clouds silhouetting  the blue blue sky


There i stood, staring into nothing but darkness
With the trickiest thoughts across my mind
At the same time waiting for my rider to come along
Waiting for my rider to come along hold my hand
Waiting for my rider to take me to the horizon


Suddenly something across the path takes my breath away
I saw some dark dark organic life running away
I stood there wondering what was that thing
Was that some life
Or it was my destiny??




Then ekdum achanak se i realised it was some dark black CAT!!!!


See again these thoughts played with me!!
Sometimes certain things create such a beautiful illusion, you actually start loving the illusion rather than the reality!! But then what is our fault!! Aksar ittefaq-coincidence or illusion-vaham or what ever it is called is so adorable!! We start to live with that!!


Cos after all we are HUMANS!! The Superior Beings!! :)