It killed me and made me stronger

May be when you are less aware of the surroundings
You are less afraid

May be when you not mature enough
You don't regret it, when life take turns

May be when you have not loved inside out
You don't feel the pain of loosing

May be when you are naive
You are safe from angst

May be when you have things to break
It weakens you

May be when you are wiser
It makes you aware of the fears

May be when you are you
It surprises you

And as the wise say, may be when you have nothing to loose, you become stronger

I have lived a life
I have had experiences
I have had heart breaks
I have had struggles
I have had weak moments
I have had strong moments
The gist is, I have lived enough to know few things!
And through the journey of search for meaning,
I have questions!
Even more as days pass on!

Is it possible that a person can actually achieve a point in life where he has nothing to loose?
Aren't you afraid of loosing your own soul?
Or is it that soul stays with you irrespective of how much you have sinned!

Aren't you afraid of loosing your memories?
There are people who have lost them and who are loosing it slowly as Alzheimer's progresses!

Aren't you afraid of the unknown!

I know I am afraid!

Yours
For the love of god!
Oh Holy Father I have sinned!

You took my heart away!
and "killed me" definitely made me stronger!

Tales of "You"

Lumps

Lump sum

Lump in the throat

Lump in the brain

You cut it out! Throw it out! Treat it with drugs!

What if the lump is in the mind?  Is in the soul?

How do you cleanse your mind, body and soul?

Can you actually clean your soul?

Isn't it that scars heal but damage to the soul stays forever?

Withering is what makes you, you!

And you ask me, what is that pricks me?

And you ask me, why do I write about the fallen?

And you ask me, What is that lingers deep inside?

And you ask me, why do I embrace the cold?

Cold never bothers me!

It is the warmth that burdens me!

Yours

You'd rather cover up

I would rather let them bleed

So let me be

And I have set you free

Human emotions are so fragile. It is like that broken piece of old record that gets stuck over and over again. You whisk it . It blends in. You stop whisking. It forms lumps.

I know you won't call

But I check my call list

I know you won't come back

But I wait for your return

I know I have driven you away

But I still curse the day 

I know it burns

But I touch it

I know it bleeds

But I cut it

Yours

The incandescent pain is proportional to the much need of drifting away and at the same time much need of being closer.

Close enough to drown

Far enough to escape

Drags me down

I have always taught myself to visualize the brighter side of the worst moments!
But when the brighter side is too bright , I tend to drift!
Drifting is not by choice, its by virtue of who I am!
And then as always, I sink into the deep abyss of the worst!
Killing me!
Suffocating me!

Yours
Let's make a night ignites the brighter side
Remembering the brighter side drags me down