You scream, We all scream for ICE-CREAM!!!!

12 noon: I am damn hungry!!! Food!!! i need delicious food.... "मुझे खाना चाहिए" जल्दी जल्दी, वरना वरना में भूक से मर जाउंगी!!!  lolzzz...

Well its a complete different story that i have this continuous desire to eat something or the other all the time :) I think that is what is the actual motive of my "life" he he he :p

Awww... Now my hunger centre is so damn stimulated...

Boom!!! What is there for lunch!!! Thinking hard what's there for lunch..You know sometimes my memory seems to lapse...
 Alas!!!! its our cook's special " लौकी-चना" with loads of cloves it that!! Can you beat that!!! Is it that " cloves" add some special flavour to this utterly butterly delicious dish!! Even i dont find a catch in here..

12.20 PM:  Smit & Shon!! bang on my door....They enter my cabin.
 I: Arey how come you guys are early today???
Smit & SHon: aa gaye re...bas abhi wait karna hai 12.30 ka..

12: 23...25..29..30
O course we just cant start gulping food before 12.30..

We wait till the clock strikes 12.30....Then within some five to seven mins we are done with lunch.

As usual the bollywood news continues..Every time during our lunch or dinner we have this little bollywood update session..We all gossip s if it is all about US!! You know who contributes most Its shon!!!
Sometimes i feel she has this inner connection with glamour world!!!

12.45: All o a sudden three of us together plan to drop in Baskin Robins!!

12.50: Auto stand, But with change in the order first Smit gets in, followed my me and then Shon is the last to enter....

12.53: We reach Baskin robins!!! Everyone is so happy!!! Brain working fast which flavour to choose...

We enter Baskin Robins.. Our Eyes glues to the menu..what to eat and what not to...with a doubt in mind how ll this flavour taste???
Chocolate flavour!!!! All of us...together..

Manipal

I, Shon & Smit in our fav baskin robins

Chocolate is something i think it never has any good rapo with the satiety centre!! Howmuch ever you indulge on them , you are never satisfied!! The same thing also struck us!!! But then you have to think about our poor stomach!! What all foods he has to jhelofy....
So, with that we come back..

Sometimes random plans seems to work perfect!!

The soul speaks

What is that thing that holds two people together?? ever wondered??
Don't how far i have understood this mystery. But what i have conjured till now, its like a coconut!!
Now you must be wondering from where does this "COCONUT" come from.. Well what i mean is ..its kinda complicated. When you see it from outside world, it looks like one but once you get into this..its like a hurricane!!!
Perhaps coconut or hurricane are definitely not the perfect words!! but trust me this " relationship" this whole thing is so damn complicated...It just weakens my soul whenever i try to draw out a clear cut picture out of it.. Is it the relation or is it my soul that is so weak??
Still i wonder what is it...Why is it that everytime something passes through my soul, it gets stuck...The filters have become weak i guess!!!


I am dumbstruck!!
I am speechless!!
I am clueless!!
I am helpless!!


And i hate this feeling so very much.
The hard i try to let go of this, the more intriguing it becomes.
It comes back right  into me.
 Gud lord!!


This whole relationship thing is so damn complicated!! People come into your life all of a sudden. No matter if you want those little idiots in your life or not!!! They drop in, say hi, alter your life little bit, then all of a sudden say bi and phooo!!! they are gone..
But the time these people are wid you,
they love you,
they hate you,
they irritate you to the core,
they nag you,
they tease you,
they eat up yr grey matter!!! "Provided you have any" ;p


Huh!! and they just leave like that, without even saying a formal good bye atleast.. I think i have known enough of these!!  Sometimes i really wonder whether it is the same for the other person or its just that they come along and leave, it doesnt affect them much....
After all those years of togetherness, they just suddenly step back.






I wish i had some old wise owl or a turtle may b!!  Like the ones they show in fairy tales..So that they answer all my weird queries!!!

The missing passenger?????

15th feb 2011: Here goes my next blog.

Little late to blog about this adventurous day!! or should i call it " A DAY" !! The day that am referring to is 9th feb of the year 2011. 

After enjoying my dearest cousin's wedding, ah yes!! it was indeed a fantastic wedding. And i think this was the "first family wedding" where i had enjoyed so much. Oh my god! am so glad that i went home for this particular wedding. So after this big fat oriya wedding in Bhubaneswar, three of us that includes mom, dad and me o course, all came back to my house in Cuttack. 8th feb 2011, was my last stay at home, the very next i was suppose to catch my flight for Banglore and then "KSRTC- Airawat"  for "The university town". So, you know how you feel that very last day at home...Hell lot of thoughts cross your mind. Something like oh again back to the same old routine. And what freaks me out is getting up early in the morning. Cause once i go home, this waking up thing in the morning becomes the most enjoyable moment...he he he..know why cause i can sleep as many hours i want!! Ah i just love that...But never mind, back in here sunday solves the whole purpose!! Its just one sunday!! And my favourite day of the week... Is it??? Oh yes it is!!!

So here comes The D day :  9th Feb 2011

The sun rays entered my room like a bright shining sword piercing the evil darkness, woke me up from my own dream world. And there i was lying down on my bed, looking through the window and thinking about by my journey. Awww!! technology..all it takes is just 50 mins to reach Banglore!!!

There's a big advantage when you go home for few days and that is you get this " Special treatment"!! And this special treatment package includes a delicious breakfast, energizing tea and some good songs on MTV.

12 o' clock

12 O'clock noon: All work done, packing done and only thing  that was left was to leave for the airport at sharp 12.45. Clock striking 12.20 and i was having this last lunch at home... I just looked at the wall clock, the hands showing 12.25. I was so happy thinking i had  some 20 mins left and "aaram" se i could finish all my work.. The last thing i did was to put my fasttrack on. Boom!! when i saw the time my eyes just popped out...Cause it was 13.10!!! Omg all that time i was looking at the watch, that was actually "LATE"!! For heaven's sake i was literally freaking out!! But then anyhow we hit the road leading to the airport. My heart beats racing. And that particular traffic had to there after all the it was the peak time. But anyhow i managed to catch my flight. Thank god!! And then in the flight there was this funny guy, eveytime i looked at him he said hello..Funny though. but a cute one ;) and again the air traffic was heavy. so finally i landed at 17.15. After a intoxicating coffee and chicken katti roll, i started my next mission. " Mission: The white liner". Between there's this katti roll junction just outside  b'lore airport, you gotta taste it. It's mouth-watering. I came across it through one of my dearest friend.

The sun was on its way back home, throwing all lovely colors in the sky. What a pleasant evening. I just loved the view. Aise i do enjoy watching the evening sky and i clicked some pictures too.

 Here is one of them.

BANGLORE

 The next thing was getting into the bus no 9 and there i was walking with my bags towards the red volvo. Taxi drivers approached, but i was too busy to listen to them. I was enjoying the blore evening after all.

The lovely sunset, cool breeze playing softly with my entangled hair and the the red volvo.. ha ha ha... well the red volvo!!! it was all set, i was into the bus by 18.15. So, i was hoping to reach majestic by 19.30.

i was relaxed as i had plenty of time. So there i was looking through the window, enjoying the nature and the ride as well. But as we gradually moved towards the city the ride got more and more slow.. hmmmm again the bad traffic..and with time it got more worse. Imagine what time i reached majestic it was 20:10. and i had to catch the 20:18 Airawaat!! Hell!! less time..but i managed to trace " my bus". and that very moment!! i felt like : what a relief!!! I checked in and kept my bags in place. Still i had some five-seven minutes so i excused myself for a hot cup of coffee. After the refreshment break i returned back to the white liner. There was one girl i think form MIC, and it was obvious we are definitely going to manipal. And what i discovered was that i shared another seat with her. All set!! "The rider" that was me , was on the white horse " airawaat". Though airawaat means elephant but when we measure the speed i have to call it a horse :p. Meanwhile i finished all those " i reached blore type formalities". arey calling up home and some couple of friends.

20.45: The bus still at the bus stop, and i was under an impression that may be it was running late or something. errrrrr... But then there came a passanger asking me about my seat number and details.. At that very moment i felt like shouting : what!!! do you want mister??? Then with all that leo pride i showed my ticket...and there came the direct hit!! Whaaaaatttt!!! i was into the wrong bus...It was a big mess, i was still there in blore and my bags were already on their way to manipal. Oh my god!! what if my bags go missing!1 this thought haunted me!! and what if that conductor dint help me... this was killing me. I gathered all my courage and approached the bus conductor with my blunder. When he listened to my great deed, he decide to help me and i felt as if he was a angel!!! but angels are for real??? is it?? don't know. What ever it was i thanked god. Then he called up "my actual bus" conductor, i guess these people have some kind of good network among them, and informed the situation.

So after all that i was told to travel in that bus and would catch with my actual bus at 1:00 in the morning.

In spite of all these there was something funny, i became " THE MISSING PASSENGER" !! famous!! an han!! hehehehe. It was my sheer luck to get a free seat. The journey of missing passenger started finally. 

12:30: bus at petrol tank

1:00  : Bus STOPS!!! My actual bus waiting at the stop, call for the missing passenger with strict instructions to get the bags and continue travel in the same bus

Phew!!! i got my bags. Thanks to the conductor. :) :) :) :)

The missing passenger continued her journey in the same bus and reached manipal safely sharp at 6.15. 

Sometimea when unexpected things happen, you become terrified but when you look back , it just leaves your lip with a sweet smile. I think that's what it has become for me.. a hell of a journey but i enjoyed. After all we gain through our experiences.

Relationships part 1

Relationships!! it is what they call it!!

I call it "The covalent bonding"..

          " The symbiosis"

          " The mutualism"

And what else should i say to define "the word RELATIONSHIP". I think we all understand it very well, though its damn complicated but we all have our own way of seeing things.And of course relationships is always not about the beloved , it can be with anyone, may be a friend, a family member, a colleague, a senior, a relative whom you have met in a wedding for the first time in your life or even a stranger travelling with you. It never matters with whom, or what kind of a person he/she is,  but it does matter how well you get along with eachother. Its always the love, attachment and dedication that beholds us together.

Let me share a small story, its about three friends.

So, here it goes:

I think it all started some where in May,2003. Just after my 12th results were out i had applied for some course in VIT, Vellore. I came to know about the university from one of my family friend, and i was damn impressed. So i thought let's give it a try, so in that hot sunny weather i drove all the way to the Head Post office to drop the form. After a few days the  letter arrived that said " you have been selected for the course". It was like a blessing to me. And i do thank the almighty for all these. 
Well all these are the most boring part of this blog  i say but " तड़का लगाने के लिए दाल तो चाहिए ना,  नहीं तो फिर आप तड़का किस्मे लगाओगे " अब फीकी दाल थोड़े ही किसीको रास अति है" क्यूँ मैंने कुछ  गलत बोला ?? 


And here it goes: Journey begins!! Cuttack-Vellore

Then after all that tiring journey i ended up finally in a station called "KATPADI" !! What an unusual name नहीं ?? With all that heavy luggage, hot summer, sweat tricking down my spine,  standing there for an auto..OMg!! it was such an horrible experience, and people out there !!! Hell!!! Trust me it feels damn helpless when you end in a place where neither you understand the language nor the people out there ..But anyhow i managed to reach the place where it was already booked by one my sweet didi. Thanks to " Mamun nani" . and now yes she is happily married and resides in pune. 

That day i had my councelling and all the formalities was done. Aha!! i was overwhelmed as well as a little scared. Overwhelmed cause i was away from home and scared cause it was completely a new place for me. Bang!! here comes an end to all that " sweeeet, homely, overprotected life at home" .. aha!! trust me i was so happy to let go of that life.

The very same day i met my very good friend ( then a teenager, now he insists i call him a responsible man!). Do i really need to write about him??? 
 My first reaction OMG!! never knew we would be such good friends. But i am glad we are.

Then here comes the entry of the second musketeer "Debashree" and after all these years of friendship, there has been a little mutation to her name..So, here is how the mutation goes: Debasree-Debashree- Shona-sona-SHon-pogu :). ..SHe a very sweet girl i think i have known her for along time know, so its not fair if i just say she is very sweet. A very versatile person indeed, good at heart and a wonderful person i have ever met in my life :) What strikes you most is she has those innocent looking eyes. And i am glad that she is my friend. She's been there with me from those undergraduation days -postgraduation- job . The most important thing is she's a bengoli but stays in Assam...Bells ringing?? No..Let me explain...People usually think if you are bengoli you are definitely from West bengal...So people those come in contact with her still wonder what the hell is she doing in Guwahati.....One more thing,  i think i want to bring about here is till date people get confused with our names..so its perfect if i say the saga continues :)

And the one smiling brightly in there is the SECOND musketeer "SHON". :)

Then comes the "THRID MUSKETEER" . Her entry was little different. She missed our councelling. What i came to know was that i was sharing my double storied bunk with someone called "Smita Khandelwal"..

The surname , i know i know, its catchy and your guess is absolutely correct. She is a marwadi but way far different from the typical ones. She's another one of our gang. GANG!! han.. whatever...again the journey with her still continues. Now we share a house, the department and o course happiness, sadness and everything. This very human that am talking about is highly enthusiastic,playful, loving, caring and " one who always keeps her THINGS in place" or should i say" People meet  "The organised cancerian :) 

The one with her "Gogs" on!! is the one i have been talking about this long.
                                               " The organised Cancerian"

Now you must be wondering who the First MUSKETEER is .....vooo hooo...Its Me!!! :) Cause i am the one who's writing..remember???

Oops!! i did forget somone..You know who Its our very own बिहारी दोस्त, हाँ  सही पहचाना "Vivek ".

And you have to damn careful when you talk about this guy...Cause for him"" LOOKS ARE DECEPTIVE".. Trust me it goes damn well with his image!! I just called him a Bihari OMG!!!! Oh no!! is he..never..it can't be!!.Its just that he lives in Darbhanga but ऐसे देखा जाये तो यार बिहारी वाले कोई लक्षण ही नहीं hain :).He's one of the most decent kinda guy i have ever met in my life and the "guru" of our खिंचागाया, फेकागायी, bhulagya , and what not " LUcky, Shona ,    SMita खिंचाग्यी ... wali hindi :) lolzzzzzzzz

Let me have the privilage to introduce soon going to be Dr. Vivek Singh Rajput..:P  

 This whole friendship thing started  way back in may -june-august 2003. But i was actually enjoyed their company in my third year of graduation. Now you must be wondering i knew these idiots since long then why did it all start in my final year.. Cause before that i was little busy with my "other friends".. And other friends includes my good friend that i think i have introduced to you and my rumie o course. But later something happened and i broke that invisible boundary and broke free!! 
But whatever it was, till date am glad i broke free.....
Enough said!!
Here ends my " small story" ..Of course it is not small..nevermind.

 But its not yet over.

I wish i could be you

Murudeswar beach again

Murudeswar

On the way to manglore

I wish i could be like my mum sumday

     the mother, the wife, the daughter, the daughter-in-law,  the lyricist, the sister

     the struggler..wen no1 had faith on her

     the determination to achieve success wen she entered a new world

     the competence to luv us

     the ability to spell out the truth wen it was intricate to do so

I wish i could be like my dad sumday

     the father, the spouse, the son, the son-in-law, the singer, the dramatist

     one who cares for us

     one who loves us because its us

     one who believes in us

     one who sacrifised his dreams his thoughts because of us

     because we r the family

I wish i could be a nice hominid sumday

    the day wen there would b no sorrows, no regrets, no guilt, no anguish

    only love, affection, emotions, sentiments, happiness

I wish i could be a researcher sumday

   the success, the tensity, the celebration, the pain

   the happiness u share wen u cum up with new innovative ideas

   the wonderful time u spent wid yr team members

   the laughters, the blunders u did

I wish i could be a photographer sumday

  so that i could capture the splendid nature in my microfilms forever

  so that i could capture the lovely moments spent with my dear ones

  those feelings those time those moments that leaves my heart with an imprint of joy, love, enjoyment

I wish i could be dancer sumday

  so that i could dance to the tunes that my heart sings everytime

I wish i could be a singer sumday

  so that i could pour in my thoughts to the song

  the song that flows in my blood like a elixir

I wish i could be a guitarist sumday

  so that i could sing to mee the very own me

  when i am ecstatic, when i am blue

I wish i could be so strong sumday

  so that i could face every challenge that comes my way

  so that i could bear every pain that comes my way

  so that i never cry when i am hurt

  so that i never sob to the pillows in the late hours of night

  not to become numb when sumthin stirs my soul

I wish i could meet a person sumday

  that day my life could head towards a new horizon

  new feelings, new emotions

  that day i could let him love me

  let him love me the way i am

  let him love me because its love

  let him love me beacuse i love him

  let him love me forever  

I wish i could be a writer sumday

  not because its genetic

  but because its a way of expressing the meee in me!

  expressing the feelings that i have concealed in the bottom of my heart for years

  expressing the thoughts that have been chasing me ever since i have gained my senses

I wish i could dig out the person in me

  the person am unaware of

  the person i have been searching for years

  longing for aspirations

  longing for thoughts

  longing for explanations when i do sumthin

  that amazes me, that makes me happy, that hurts me, that makes me cry

  that leaves me entangled with emotions

I wish i could make sumone happy sumday

  make sumone proud

  make sumone long for me

  make sumone love me forever

  make sumone say ah! tat's my gal!

I wish i could fulfill all my wish sumday

folks say

  i am mad

  i am always lost in me "my very own world"

  sumtyms i don listen to them when they talk

  i forget things

  i am crazy about music, good food

  i care too much

  i give free advice

  i have a bad temper

  i am a nature lover

  i get too much involved with my lappy

I wish i could explain them sumday

I wish i could make them understand me well

I wish i could make them realise i hate being taken for granted all the time

I wish i could spell out those unsaid words that i have always wanted to spell out

I wish sumday everyone could be happy with eachother

  no one stays lonely makin their life turn into hades

I wish sumday everything could be perfect with a little bit of imperfection

  that day i could lie down in my bed peacefully not to wake up the next morning

  but to sleep forever

 That day i wish i  would

   be able to face the inevitable death

   be reborn again sumwhere else

   with a new identity

   with  a new name

    as  a new person 

    as  a new human being

I wish i could be a person sumday

that i have always wanted to be....

Its the same, yet so different..

Its the same for everyone, but when i see it it appears so very different to me..When i look into the evening sky, everytime it leaves me baffled with its splendid pick of colors.The sun sets everyday and so does the night falls. But everyday when you look at the sky its different!! 
Here it goes :


Through the eyes of a lover, You see the undying love
Through the eyes of a painter, You see unusual strokes of colors  painted by the brush
Through the eyes of a photographer, You see different angles of the endless sky captured in a frame
Through the eyes of a dreamer, You see a new dream taking shape
Through the eyes of a soul in agony, You see the wound getting healed
Through the eyes of a traveller, You see the zeal to accomplish the next destination


And when you see through my eyes, You see a surprised thought!!


And how do you think is it possible, the same thing appears new to me
as if it has been put forth before me in a complete new "AVATAR"