Monday, November 11, 2013

Reactions- better known or better unknown!

What bothers you most- when you know how the person standing in front of you feels or when you don't know how the person feels?

You can only interpret how a person reacts to a particular thing only if you have lived long with that person or if you understand the person adequately! I won't say you can only decipher the exact feeling if you understand completely, because somehow and anyhow no matter how long you have lived together or even how well or close you are, there are times when we are completely clueless about certain things! Cause you can't understand a person completely, with every passing moment you learn to understand him/her better. And that's because,  with every passing time we learn from our mistakes, we learn from our success, we learn from each other and when that's not enough, time teaches us! And there's this mutation! If not learn, then at least mutate! I know you can do that! i can! I think so!

Reactions can be sometimes overwhelming, like mine
Reactions can be sometimes disheartening, like mine

Reactions can be sometimes drastic, like mine
Reactions can be sometimes gradual, like yours

Reactions can be sometimes ugly
Reactions can be sometimes beautiful

But what actually keeps you in the loop is when these are only reactions! When you overreact, the very next moment you loose everything that you have! But then if you ask me, i think i over react at times. What puzzles me is- is it always that i over react or is it how you look at me?
But then most women do, don't we? or at least we think we over react....

But the whole post is not about how and why women over react, it's about how it feels when you know or don't know what is the exact reaction...So let me stick to it...Phew my own thoughts are so mean!!! Like really mean! they always tempt me to drift away! Always!

Yeah so what was i saying, where do you like it? On the bed or under the shower?

Whatttt! I am just talking about the good thought process!

Well when you know a person enough to decode their exact reaction for a particular issue, sometimes it helps you in decision making and sometimes it confuses you!
Why it confuses you? Well there are things that you want to do and the other person doesn't! In that case you are really confused whether to go with it or abandon it!
How it helps you in decision making, well that part we all know, i needn't elaborate!

Anyways it's always easier to give than to take away!
Anyways it's always easier to agree than to disagree!
Anyways it's always easier to nod than to keep mum!
Anyways it's always easier to keep everyone happy.... well about this one, am really not sure!

But then don't you always choose the right path? I know some of you do, few of my friends do and they want me to! But am no saint! Bad attracts bad, likewise wrong attracts me!
And i don't want to be a saint but why would i want to be one when i have few people in my life to pull me back from hell! But trust me hell is very inviting ;) ( a word of caution- this is not for the weak heart)

Sometimes when you know what is going to be exact reaction, it scares you... hmmm you have a doubt about that? Well it scares the hell out of me and at times it hurts me also! But then you are hmmmm not even me! We are no Professor Snape! We can't control minds! 

Many a times when am not sure how  he is going to react, it blinds me! Yes he! Why he! Why you! It has become a part of me! What i am today! But let's leave "the he and you" alone for now! Even if i don't, he will!

What am just saying is, when you don't know about the reactions, it can lead to misunderstandings! It can lead to fights! It can lead to anger! And anger my friend! Is itself a killing machine! So whenever you have a slightest doubt, pop up the question! Do it then! Do it now! 
Ahhh! i know you will be more than happy to know whether i do it myself or not! Well sometimes i do and many times i don't. That's because am too afraid to even ask! And somethings are better left unsaid even after knowing that they are ones that you will keep thinking about!

Seriously speaking i don't have any clue what am doing right now!
Seriously speaking i don't have any clue why am doing what i am doing!
Seriously speaking i don't have any clue what am going to do later!
Seriously speaking i know it's numbing me! 

It all depends on which side you are on! That will find an answer for you!

Your's
You were never mine!
You will never be!
But does it really matter!
I knew it already!

2 comments:

A.M. said...

Now this is probably the first time I had problems plunging into the depths of your post but no offence to what you wrote. There could be two reasons:
1- My head is already crammed with "reactions" and "over-reactions" over certain "sensitive" matters 2- The topic is itself about reactions which already makes it an issue of ambiguity. There is nothing absolute about a reaction, The same reaction which seemed perfect in the past to us might seem very immature in the future or vice-versa, the same reaction might seem good to someone and bad to someone else, it is just a matter of situation and perception. And reactions are the most unpredictable, when they match your expectations they are just a matter of coincidence. And it is just a myth that girls overreact, nowadays everyone does and every reaction and overreaction scripts a new story, one whether you like or not, give way to other reactions. A lot of things are never under our control, however reactions arent one of them, but we tend to enslave ourselves to our reactions rather than gaining control over it. There is always a Voldermort reigning our mind. Shutting down our mind is always an option. But Happiness is all about how well we can cast our Patronus.

Yours
"You will always be mine
The Heart says it
Near or far, wherever you shine
The candle of love will forever stay lit"

Devasrita said...

Ehh Harry potter fan is it?? :) Yeah it is true what seems right today, can seem wrong tomorrow and vice-versa. What more can i say, you seem to have said it all :) :)