Coming to terms with who you are!

And then coming to terms with who I am!

Is the hardest thing, I have done in a long time!

But then can you ever come to terms with who you are!

Yours

Early morning thoughts

When you are away, you are away!

What happens when you aren't loyal?

Does the world stop spinning?

Does the moon stop glowing?

Does the sun stop glaring at you?

Are you?

I know I am not!

Every time this psychosomatic rises, it kills me from inside out!

Every time you are away, I miss you a thousand times!

Every time I think I am over you, you don't let me have my closure!

Every time my neck gives me that burning heat, my drunk heart gives me blues!

Why is that, when you are away, you are away!


Yours
Why is this and why is that 

Doesn't have to

It doesn't have to be the same!

It doesn't have to be you!

It doesn't have to repeat!

It doesn't have to wet my eyes!

It doesn't have to redistribute my thoughts!

It doesn't have to rekindle  the pain inside me!

It doesn't have to kill the inner child!


Once a lesson is learnt, it is forever!

But then is forever is forever?

Yours
Scared inner child

Fights

Some fights are your own!

Some fights you have to fight alone!

Some fights you have inside you!

Some fights you have with your hearts!

Yours
Ever conflicting mind

Sometimes we draw a line

Sometimes I draw a line

Not to escape

Not to drown

But not to get hurt

But not to experience that feeling- what we call 'Deja vu'

Yours

Tea was never my cup of tea!
Not then!
Not now!
You are not my cup of tea!

Cause baby! I brew my own coffee!

Yours
So much for the love of coffee

Thanks to you

I can't get you out of my mind
Thanks to you

I can't grow close to another soul
Thanks to you

I can't say just enough
Thanks to you

I can't empathize like I used to
Thanks to you

I can't share my opinion
Thanks to you

I can't shower my concern like I used to 
Thanks to you

I can't hear my own thoughts
Thanks to you

I can't cry like I used to you
Thanks to  you

I can't enjoy silence
Thanks to you

But I can care less!
But I can turn apathetic!
But I can restrain the same old me!

Thanks to you!

Yours
Damn these dampening feelings
Damn these fucking hormones
Damn you

When you were you
You were not my parameter

When you were not you
You were my parameter

When I never used to write about you
You were my kryptonite

When you.....

Somedays even good songs are not good enough to inspire me!
Somedays even the strongest of emotions do not kill me!
Somedays even the weakest of thoughts keep me going!
Somedays even the long lost love splatters my thoughts all over!

I don't know its me or its you! Why do I have to have a parameter? Why does it have to be you? Why do I have to go through all  that again? Why am I afraid to relive the glory? Why do I deflect? 


Yours
You know why I write
You know why I scribble every now and then
Just to flush you out of my system

But you! Like that old promise, never leave me!

Sometimes there is no right answer!

You just have to find one that sticks to you!

Sometimes there is no wrong answer!

You just have to find one that goes with you!

Sometimes I am lost for words!

Yours
Abandoned thoughts

Hate

I hate the raincoat but I love the rain
I hate the meaningless conversations but I love the memory it creates
I hate the pain but I love the love it brings along
I hate that I love to hate

I hate my scattered thoughts but I love the chaos it creates
I hate my guts but I love the person I am today
I hate my instincts but I love my intuitions
I hate that I love you

They say hate is a very strong word
They say hate is a very powerful word
They say there not enough hate to drive me
They say there is not enough hate to make me angry

What is hate without love!

Yours
Hate me enough