I am someone who prefers a black and white picture of a rose than the colored one!
I don't know what it makes me!

The Second Opinion!

You grow old every day! That is something....well let's not go there!

The more I am growing older and complicated, the more I am realizing the fact that you cannot possible do everything on your own. I don't know whether its a good thing or a bad thing. And with years passing by, you have only one opinion to count upon! Your own! But sometimes my friend, you need a second opinion on things, on life and on your own insights!

Sometimes you are not quite enough

Sometimes you are quite not your self

Sometimes you are not your self-reminder

Sometimes reminder isn't quite enough to count upon

Sometimes sleeping on things isn't the right thing

Being a single child, I have been looked upon as a lonely, reserved well spoiled brat! They have often given/ rather asked this generic question, wouldn't it be nicer to have one another person! A sibling! 

Well, I have always not given them what they wanted! A suitable more appropriate answer! Cause its not! And I am used to get things done my way! When you don't know how to feel, you won't miss a thing! And the world has never bothered me with its insecurities! My laid-back self has always been enough for me! I have been raised this way! Call me a self-centered person, but I take my own decisions! I am proud of me!

But yes! With friends getting away and with geographical difference, I do miss a second opinion sometimes! I long for it! It would be nice to have one when needed!

Probably this longing will do something extraordinary to me!

Probably it will make me feel what the society wants me to feel!

Probably it will make a usual normal person!

Then there's this question! Will I loose myself in the process!

I definitely have a list of people to have second opinion on second opinions!

What dawned on me is that I have always have had a woman's perspective on life! But with passing time and change of my company, probably you do need a man's take on things as well. 

Its like  they say- "What you cannot see, they catch it off-guard!"

Yours

Early morning mood swings

For the one- that is not yours

The gift of unrequited love!

It detaches you from everything- Your soul
                                                      Your faith
                                                      Your empathy
                                                      Your attachments
                                                      Your judgments
                                                      Your emotions
                                                      Your inner peace
                                                      Your quite rested self
                                                      Your desires to find love again

Yours
Disturbed mind & unfinished soul

Hasratein!

Tum kisi ki aadat jaroor ban sakte ho!

Lekin kisi ki ibaadat nahi!

Tum kisi ka pyaar jaroor ban sakte ho!

Lekin kisi ka ishq nahi!

Tum ban to sakte ho, bohot kuch!

Lekin tum ban na chahate nahi!

Isme kismat ko kyun keench lana, jabki sandeh tumko hai khud par! 

Kis cheez ki gunzaish karein khud se, yeh mamla har waqt ulajh sa jata hai!

Kintu aur ek masla yeh bhi hai, ki tum hi tum ho aur hum hi hum hain!

Jaane kaise yeh gham hai!

Paaron pe beediyon jaise jakde hain!

Dil ne kaha, aaj jaane do inhe!

Lekin kambaqt gala hasraton ne rok liya use!

Ab lagta hai jaane denge ise!

Fir nayi jagah bi to banani hai!

Har kadam jab age hi rakhna hai, kyun na hasi ko saath lete chalein!


Khair hasratein to hazar hain!
Chaliye kisi ek se shuruwat karte hain!


Kabhi kabhi subhe ka bhula bi aag laga jata hai!

The new year post!

The other day, someone close asked me a question " why are birthdays so important to you?'
I had no answer to that question!

Asked me another question " why the hell you keep climbing up the same hill? "
I had no answer either!

Asked me another question " you give all these great advice, why don't you preach the important ones? Like staying away from the excruciating pain!
This time I had no answers! But that did spark my thoughts! 

If it is not meant to be , It won't!
But what if, you never found out, whether it was meant to be or not!
What then!
Would you go with the illusion of being extremely positive or being rational!

I surely assume a lot of things on my own!
But I am no maiden, that will dream of something irrational!

So here it goes again!
I am cynical!
I was never though!
But then who cares, you age with time!
You turn into a complete different self every year!
Isn't that what is supposed to happen!


Well Happy new year readers!

You be good readers and I promise to be much more cynical this year!

Yours
The cynic inside me